Piss Poor Teaching.
I talked with Teacher before class and reminded myself of to work on the slowness I needed and focus on fundamentals. However, after mentoring a new guy (Hippie) for the first hour I was feeling unusually good about my segment in the 2nd hour.
My part was on the Cat stance. I reviewed all of our stances in Japanese (because I can’t remember the chases – Hu Gul in this case). I gave a brief introduction foot placement, weight placement, etc. We practiced movement back and forth and everyone looked pretty good doing it. I threw in front snaps kicks and finally got to the double knife hand (Mahk ki something something) over the lead leg. We got so good at this I started cracking jokes. As soon as I did this I started mentally cursing myself for making said jokes. Not that they were bad, but I told myself I wouldn’t, but as soon as I did it the mental cursing messed me up.
I didn’t have the heart to talk to teacher afterwards. So last night I had terrible nightmares of teaching, messing things up and never really get lessons started because I was bogged down in all the little things. Damn, I’m neurotic.